Lost again.

This feeling of being lost went away for what..2 weeks? Now it's back and I don't have many distractions nor do I feel very confident. Not a good combination. Not to mention, I just realized that come March it'll be half a year since we broke up. Although things are different with us, I don't feel like I am that much different and it's honestly depressing. I thought I was for a while but as soon as I get around him and others all of the emotions, that I hated, come back. It's terrible. Once again, I don't know what do. I need a sign or something,guys.